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I’ve been dating this girl, Katie, for just about 9 months now. Met her freshman year at a party, and we’ve been hitting it off great ever since. End of freshman year we started hanging out a lot and I grew a huge crush on her. over the summer we talk via text, phone, Skype, Facebook, etc. we were literally talking to each other every day during the summer.

So when school starts back up in the fall, we instantly clinged to each other. we were always together and always in contact since her apt was a 5 min walk down the street from mine. so we started dating, things went awesome during the school year with a few bumps in the road like any relationship.
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What do you do when you can’t talk to anyone you know because the words that need to be said you never want anyone to hear?
I haven’t eaten in over 24hrs and I am on the waiting list to see my local GP to see if they can help.

I’ve been sitting in my running car crying for 10 minutes and I just don’t want to get out and continue with my day.

There is no threat to my life, just my life as I knew it. I’m a talker. Always have been. I can’t process stuff inside my head.
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They say it’s probably just one lump that can be removed, but it’s still hard to hear. We’ve dealt with breast cancer in the family before, but it’s never been genetic, so that’s also really scary for me.

Just needed to vent a little.
Sorry for your pain, breast cancer gets more and more treatable every day.

What do you mean by this?

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Any time she makes a mistake I become an asshole and treat her as if she were my child. I want to know what are ways I can avoid screaming and yelling. Right now I have stress because I am the only provider and don’t ask much from her.
Are you both aware of your roles in the relationship?

Do you both feel worthy?

Was wondering if u guys have ever had this

I remember when I was 13 or so. After playing unreal tournament for like 2 hours I went to lie down on the sofa. My heart started beating faster and faster and it felt like everything was speeding up. My thoughts and my surroundings seemed way different and I remember hearing the sound of unreal tournament guns playing in my head very loudly

i started freaking out

this lasted like 5-10mins

wtf does this mean? something similar to this happened when i was 8 or so as well…
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Just feel like venting, so if you want to reply, be my guest.

I am having a hard time being single. I don’t know what it is to be causing me so much anxiety and grief when I am not attached, when I went years (happily) without it. When my (ex)girlfriend of 4 years ripped my heart out last year, I felt so lost and hopeless. I turned to my close friends and started focusing on myself again. I started working out everyday again and doing yoga and I found a new stride. I then out of the blue found someone and thought I had found love again. 6 months into the relationship we hit a stalemate. We both were not happy at that point and were fighting on a daily basis about things we didn’t need to fight about. We had a mutual split which I think ended up saving our friendship.
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Brief cliffs on my situation for the past 6 months.

Started a new job making it a total of 2 jobs. (9 hour shift, 3 hour shift afterwords somewhere else).

Moms dying from stage 4 lung cancer and its in the worst ending stage where sometimes she’s completely gone and sometimes she’ll snap out of it. Doctors say it wont be long… very… very hard to deal with.

Losing the house and im moving into an apartment in about 3 weeks.

Girlfriend wont talk to me anymore.
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I live in Houston and my life as of now, sucks.

To be brief I came to Houston to take a job with my family’s company and have moved in with my parents (who recently moved here). My problem is that outside of my work, where no one is within 10 years of me in age (I’m 25), I have no social life. I have no friends here and I feel like I’m wasting my youth. I do have hobbies, I workout 3-5 times a week, and play poker at a particular card game in town once or twice a week. However, I have been here since last October and still have yet to establish any kind of relationship outside of work. I also feel incredibly awkward at 25 looking to make new male friends. It is not like college where everyone is making the same adjustment you are and it is easy to meet new people. Anyone with similar experiences? How about some advice.
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Things have been really tough for my mom financially lately. And yesterday, she asked my husband and I to move into her house. She has the space. They currently have 2 empty bedrooms and a large bonus room upstairs.

I love my mom, and I want to help her out. In my head I cant imagine saying no to her. She has done SO much for us. But I have some concerns about this. I have only been out of the house a year and a half. My sister and I have always had a very strained relationship. It has been better lately, mostly be cause I do not see her that often, and when she does piss me off, I can just leave. I told myself when I moved out that I could NEVER live with her again. She says she has changed, and has agreed to give us our space and compromise over some issues we have had in the past. And while that sounds good, I just dont know if it is in her to keep her word about it. My husband has voiced concerns over this as well. He says he doesnt want to be in the middle or having to break us up. Plus I know when we would fight it would upset my mother, which I dont want to do.
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Are there any here?

I only recently found out that the decade long nightmare I endured up until a year ago was…(this is still hard to say)… not my fault.

And I realized behavior patterns in myself, now being in a wonderful relationship, that are destructive. Self destructive. I react not to the actual situation, but react with emotions forged by past experiences that were full of pressure, pain and … a loss of self, I suppose.

If I see a problem that is not resolved right away, I feel very strongly that it never will be, and want to run. Because that was my reality, for so long.
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