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As based on my other thread here in Asylum. ..this is about my sons father again….

He does pay his support on time now (due to court order) but is still whining about wanting to move in with me as he is still @ his dad’s

Well finances (for me) dictated I needed a 2nd job and I did get one…problem is I couldn’t find anyone to watch my son @ night/weekends for a reasonable rate (everyone wants $250 a week + and thats what I make on this 2nd job!) so I asked my sons father to come to my house (which he didn’t even know about until now) to watch my son. I figured it was a tradeoff…I get free daycare and can keep my moneys, he can see his son more often and get a home cooked meal to boot and I know they will be in a safe environment.
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To start off, let me say that I’m not necessarily looking for help. I’m just looking for an outlet at the moment, and this will probably at least garner some responses, which are better than none.

In reality, I know that I have friends and family and those that care for me, but I still feel lonely inside. I have no one in my life that I can sit down and talk to about any and everything, and I haven’t for as long as I can remember, but it’s just recently started to surface and made me realize just how affected I’ve been from it. I am not lonely in the sense that I have no one in my life, I am lonely in the sense that I don’t have anyone to share the aspects of my life with, when it comes to conversation and just enjoying another person’s company without having to be in a bar, or at their place with 10,000 distractions going on. I know a lot of this is due to everyone in my life being very busy, myself included, with school, work, and other hobbies/relationships/etc. I don’t hate anyone for that, and I don’t expect anyone to put their life on pause to listen to anything I feel I need to say to someone other than myself, but it’s hard to not feel lonely due to those facts.
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My life is pretty much awesome. Let’s put the e-persona aside for a bit (but don’t tell the main forum, mmmkay?) so we can analyze the situation. I have my own place, a fun truck, a great job, plenty of money to get by on though I’m by no means rich, and a few good friends. I have hobbies too, so I’m pretty much never lacking for something to do when I want to do something.

I’m getting the normal pressures – older motherly women in my life, instinct, and the like are pushing me to grab a woman. I do want to have kids, when the situation is right, and I can’t think of many down sides to having the perfect woman in my life.
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So i’ve had an on and off relationship with this girl for 4 years now. I broke her heart after the first year when we broke up. Then a couple years later we’re both 21 going to the same bars. Last year this led to us hooking up frequently. In April she asked if I saw her in her future and i said no. She said she didn’t see a future without me So at the beginning of the summer while we have some time apart I reevaluate our relationship and I decide to try to get back together with her. I plan a vacation for us and even payed for the whole thing. She consulted all of her girlfriends and none of them think it’s because i’m planning on dating her again.
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provided you had to do it on your own, what would you do?

i’ve got so much time on my hands lately these last few weekends. i just finished an exam (next one’s in April), so i’m not looking at studying soon, and my usual hobbies (guitar, jiu-jitsu, gym) are great but only keep me busy for half a day tops.

the catch is i have to do it on my own – i won’t be taking friends (long story). i’d prefer to do something useful like volunteering time to teach kids high school math, but that’s one of the only things i’d enjoy volunteering to do.
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anything i can take to reduce anxiety without drinking alcohol or smokin weed?
What’s wrong with going to a therapist and being prescribed meds? Too real?

its a waste of time. i used to take zoloft but i dont feel like going to a doctor again for the same prescription.
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i have some emotional and mental issues i have been going to psychiatrists for…he has every explanation but nothing helps me…i have been on celexa, wellbutin, xanax, ativan, man i am really starting to wonder if im not bi polar…i take everything to EXTREMES…how can i convince my doctor that i actually do know a litle bit about what is going on with me? they think they have you all figured out and prescribe anideppressants like wellbutrin(which fucked me up worse) to celexa to lexapro…nothing has helped i feel just as fucked up as ever…xanax helps me calm down but its highly adictive and i dont want that either…any suggestions? my biggest problem is anxiety and depresion im usually pretty happy but when i have my bad days they last like it seems like forever..i take everything to extremes…im either way up or so far down that i can’t pull myself up for anything..even my three year old son. i need a little help from someone who has been there…talk to me
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My question is affordability of the things I want. Right now it seems as if I am in a financial rutt…I am 19 and $5k in debt…we will say with a car payment. I make 13.50 an hour.

I dont have a g/f right now, and I dont have any kids… I see all of these people around me driving bad ass cars and brand new corvettes. Now, cars are my passion and I would love to have one of these…sureley these people cant be making TOO much more than me..can they? If its that easy then why is everyone driving one?
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My mind just races all the time. When I’m with other people it’s not bad, and when I’m alone it’s at its worst. I just over analyze stuff all the time. I have constant conversation going on in my head. I rehash different subjects of my life continuously. It gets to the point where I have fake conversations in my head with other people I know. I do my best to predict their answers and questions for the given conversation that has never occurred. It drives me nuts, and I can’t turn it off.
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My wife has her mind made up that I have depression. She thinks that I should see a doc about getting a trial sample of some depression meds, thinking my serotonin levels are jacked up or some shit. Is there a way to test for serotonin in one’s body to see where they are at? I really really don’t want to start taking pills or some shit just to see if they happen to work.
wtf is wrong with your wife? is she a doctor? I’m guessing no, but she’s still pushing you to take meds because she diagnosed you as having too much serotonin?
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