Posts Tagged ‘paranoia’

How do you change your reaction to a situation?

20 September, 2008
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Kind of a strange question, but let me try to explain. I honestly don’t know where this comes from, but everytime I see or hear about my girlfriend drinking I have this serious negative reaction where I get really angry/upset, my heartrate goes way up, and my stomach turns in knots. It’s f’ing weird, and […]

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Had a a blow out with my father

7 September, 2008
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Two days off, and I get caught up on the web till 6am. Fair enough but when he comes down knocking the door down and being rude it got to me. I asked him to repeat as he said it as he walked away. Just got worse…for those who don’t know I’m bipiolar- ultraradian/mixed manic/flashbacks/psychotic. […]

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I want to step out of life

28 August, 2008
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what is real and what is not? who can i believe, who can i knowingly ignore…….? what im seeing, is it real, or just another copy of the fake existence of myself……..? i dont know what to believe in anymore other than God, the holy spirit inside of me……i can FEEL it, PHYSICALLY FEEL the […]

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the story of my marriage (yep, long, no cliffs)

21 August, 2008
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my marriage is coming to an end, and i never thought id post a thread like this in my life, but here it is. im sure it will be long, and im sure there will be no cliffs. dont worry, im not obligating any one to promise to read it. so i met my wife […]

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Agoraphobia and Clonazepam – I need help

18 August, 2008
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i have a history of mild social anxiety but have never been so bad that i needed meds for it. It’s always been more of a fear of talking in front of a big group or being the center of attention. I lost my job in January this year and since then i’ve become pretty […]

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