Please No hurtful comments or any responses from the mod that lives in tampa fl I just dont see her advice helpful its nothing personal.

I’m on the verge of suicide at the moment we’ll actually its been a year and a half I’ve had it for my whole life but it amplified by over 200 times this last year and a half. I lost this girl that was my first girl friend we use to have amazing sex and and she practically lived at my house. She’d scratch my back and take care of me and I would do the same for her. We loved each other I enjoyed her company. I wasn’t perfect her family was unfair to me. At times I fucked up. I did miss her graduation because she before dating me was friends with mostly guys wanted her so I didnt want to see her with them. I use to do things for her family like going to dinners and even did things like paying for her it made me happy, I use to call her telling her to hurry up and get here. We had fun just laying in bed watching tv and talking and loved making love. I made her comfortable with herself she wanted sex everyday and would spend the night at my house. She lied about stuff a lot of stuff but little things so we would fight over that. I got hooked on oxycotin and she moved into town to play a sport. When she moved it was like she had no time for me and it hurt so bad. We faught and broke up but I figured it would resolve it self and we would be able to work it out. Well one day a few months later she acted like everything was going to be ok only to have her come sit on my couch and tell me that she was getting engaged to a younger guy who she just met and i think she did it cause she likes horses he has them and he put a ring on her finger. Well anyway I was in tears tried to get her back and then I decided to give up. I fucked up in school with grades, starting doing hardcore oxycotin, blew through my savings of 2500. I tried to tell her how much I love her even today I did because she texted me asking about my number and who this is but she knows my number by heart i had it ten years and she called me every day so i figured this not knowing my number game meant she wanted to start something. she called me for months after her engagement acting like getting together told me i was best at sex even having phone sex we met up a few times and like I said I hear from her every once in a while still. We I poured my heart out and said forget the past we belong together I want you back Im moving and want you with me well her ex sent me a text being civil at first and then being an asshole so i told him everything i did with her sexually and then he said hes happy with her and the baby im assuming her dog because i live in a small town and never heard she was pregnant. Her parents did the same thing met at 17 the mom cheated on the dad he burnt her stuff and then they got back together 3 years later. I don’t know if thats her plan with us, I’ve considered getting a restraining order to show her that wont happen with us. What do I do I’m doing so many pills. She was the love of my life, I stuck my neck out there just to have it broken and now im a drug addict who doesnt think about other women who has od before and wants to commit suicide. My mom and dad wont talk about stuff with me and tell me find a new one. I want her not anyone else and now im afraid shes pregnant and that she will never want me again. Suicide has been on my mind i havent thought about any other girls when we first broke up i fucked some but I dont know what to do. I love her I’d do anything for her and yet she doesnt seem to want that but then text me and calls me out of the blue. What do I do? I’ve been to therapy, I’ve asked my parents for they make me feel. Id marry her right now if I could even have a baby but it probably won’t happen I would go to her house but the bf lives with her. I might move up north with my aunt and uncle. Should I do the restraining order thing tomorrow to show her it wont be like her parents i wont wait but then she cant contact me. Please dont tell me to get over it ok because I’m at the point of slitting my wrist very soon. I wont go to the looney bin. Please help if you can. shes been the only girl to give me a second look.

I feel I failed. she wanted my baby and to get married I didnt do it

Really man? So you post it in here instead of the Asylum?

Anyway, you need help, professional help and you know it. If you’re being serious about actually feeling suicidal right now then you need to either speak with someone close to you, or if you don’t feel you’ve got that then you call a suicide hotline for now.

You need to find help in your city. It exists, you just have to be proactive in finding it.
I actually second beer, you should be seeking professional help.

But as a side, suicide is NEVER the answer, you just make it hard on others when you go that route…
i have no words. If this is serious then you need to seek help. the advice i have to offer will be futile. you are not in a state of understanding right now.

see someone about this now.
It sounds like you’re in a lot of pain. You essentially made this girl your life and happiness, but now that she is gone you feel like you’ve got nothing. The big thing I noticed is that you feel you’ve let her down by not marrying her and having a baby with her. Now that she is having a baby with some other guy, you believe that its over between you, but she keeps contacting you at random times–which I figure proabably makes it hard to move on and get over your feelings for her.

The part I don’t understand is the restraining order. What do you meanby getting a restraining order to show her that it won’t be like her mom and dad? Also, you said that you were already doing oxycotin before it ended. What drove you to start doing that?
Get off the drugs… save money…. move to miami or costa rica…. miami beach is a melting pot full of different woman…costa rica u can pay woman to love u… ur small town is just getting to u… show me a pic of this girl and i will show u what u get in costa rica… no chick is worth ones life! Also talk to ur brother and tell him the same thing.
Call this number immediately and talk to them:

Need help? In the U.S., call 1-800-273-8255
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

Good question….hope so :-/

theres 6 single chicks for every guy here in South FL
copy this post. print it off. call the cops and tell them that you are suicidal.

allow them to arrest you and bring you to a mental care home. tell them that you want involuntary treatment for 6 months.

If you really think you’re going to do it, that is. You will feel a bit better by the end of it, then you will have the rest of your life left.

How can I help you? What can I say besides there are literally millions of other girls that you can be with instead of her, just take it one day at a time go to sleep wake up tomorrow, go to work or school and repeat then one day you’ll wake up and realize it doesn’t hurt as much anymore. GL
Don’t get a restraining order. That’s just drama. Suicide doesn’t make you special. It makes you dead. It’s dramatic, but you can’t enjoy it. Attempting to OD works for drama, but it’s dangerous. Don’t play.

What if this girl were yours, married to you, and all that? Then she died in a car wreck. It happens to 40,000 people a year in the U.S. Only 35,000 in good years. What would you do then? You can’t stake your mental health on someone else’s health or even existence.

You need Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT). It’s a generic term that applies to the idea that our thoughts can govern our feelings and behaviors. You can find lots of CBT help on the web. If you want a doctor, find one that does CBT. It’s quick and effective.
Well, you will only get one life man. When someone dies people say nice things for few minutes but then forget about him and move on. Don’t let these assholes win. Best thing to do is to put your life together and make your girl friend regret her decision of ever leaving you in the future. How would you feel if your girl friend killed herself?. Think about your mother, father etc. Even if they might say they don’t care; deep inside they do but they also want you to think that they don’t, so you grow and up and take care of business. It’s very hard to raise a child, you can’t even sleep right because the baby needs to be fed. Then it takes years of care and what not to get that child to a point where they can do things by themselves. It’s a big loss to lose someone you love, so even if you don’t care about your own life, think what your parents and loved ones would go through. Maybe someone else would suicide because of your death. Go look at your childhood pictures, go from year 1 to year x, where you are now. Maybe then you will realize how valuable a human life is not only to yourself but also others. No one ever dies alone man.
To build on something wolfskymoon said: if you kill yourself, everyone you care about automatically loses and the assholes who drove you to suicide automatically win. Is that how you want things to end?

I have a feeling he’s ok
I decided to move with my aunt and uncle in nj. They have money but I figure I can find me a girl with plenty of fish because its northen NJ ( i dont have friends there though) I want to find a loyal girl, save money to buy a old motorcycle and car to restore. Besides moving for the reasons I mentioned my aunt and uncle and positive people. I’m hoping I can start a company of my own and move to pa or ny with my wife to get land I want my kids to hunt and be able to ride atvs or dirt bikes. I just hope I can meet a wife and have kids within a few years I really want someone in my life. My ex isn’t upsetting with the pregnant stuff. I just hope i can trust someone in the future and I think I want kids because I dont get love from my family, I also think moving is a good thing for focusing because I’ll be there for school not just to live there. the drugs probably wont stop but I need to try and stop. My brother said he thought i was dieing last night

Oh god, I thought this was a parody for a minute.

Please get professional help, wherever you go.

this is good advice.

He moved to Jersey…. now he’s got The Situation as his therapist
this sounds like a disaster in the making….you’re talking about marrying someone else already and having kids "because your parents didn’t show you love"
It’s so sad. Killing yourself over a broad. That is just pathetic.

And I am someone who has sat up for nights playing with razors.

I could write a book on suicide. People that do it over girlfriends, that is just nuts.

When you put it like that, it almost sounds like a bad decision.

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