G/F kicking me out because I’m a bum

Bit of a rant here, been going through some shit here lately so bare with me.

Few years back, I probably made a thread in here when my ex g/f left me.
I moved to Cali because my mom moved there, got a job, made friends, was having an awesome time.

Dad kicked me out for unknown reasons, probably because I took his old job, but he quit anyway so whatever.
I had been seeing this girl I met shortly after my ex left me, kind of a rebound fuck but she wasn’t the first I had sex with after my ex left.

I had planned to live on a boat in cali, but with my boss only paying me $300 a week, I couldn’t afford to live there. Rather than look for a job or apartment or being somewhat of a responsible human being I called this girl and she told me to come live with her. I didn’t know if that would work, but she travels for her job so she was gone all the time. The novelty of that I did like, but I didn’t want to just use her.
I got a job like right after I got to Texas with this company, and they started bouncing paychecks and I just stuck around like an idiot because I was making some money. We moved out of houston further north and I left that job because everyone else had left at that point as well.
I found another job, but it was shitty, they didn’t pay overtime and I wanted to stay in my field (audio/video installer).
She got a job offer in Alabama and I moved here with her, I have no job now, I’ve been applying everywhere I can think of, I wanted to stay in my field but now I don’t care. I applied at a grocery store for fucks sake.
She told me she’s tired of supporting me, and doesn’t want me to be here since I’m not bringing in any money.
She’s crying and so am I, I didn’t want to be a fucking failure and I am.
She doesn’t want me to go, doesn’t want this to be over but either way I have to go. I feel like if we take a break, we won’t get back together anyway so we are just going to end it. Unless I get a job phone call this week I’m moving.

I just had to rant to someone.
I should mention that I’m 30, and have no college education. I have plans to fix that, but that hinges on me getting a job where I move to.

Hey, things could be worse, you’re not me.
My advice is to be there were the oppertunities are.

There seems to be oppertunity in Alabama but you have to 24/7 search for a job, now is not the time to be kidding around. Just say to your gf that you are going to do everything in your power to get a job, and will leave the house if she really wants you to, but that in the meantime you’ll be out searching for a job. Show her that you are serious, not just with words, but 100% action as wel. You have too many posts on OT, you need to understand that doing important things comes first > having fun its that you have to ensure you are doing the right and the responsible thing here. I can only give you guidance to get thru this, but winning the war is up to you.
Right now, you need to take any job you can get, regardless of field. Once you have enough money coming in to pay your bills, you can start looking for a better job (either in terms of pay or liking the job).

And as far as the living together/relationship….this probably killed it. Once you get some money coming in, look for a different place to live, get some roommates you aren’t involved with. Then you and she will have to see if the relationship can be rebuilt or not.
I was in a similar but better situation than that about 3 years ago. All I can say is…

I know you’re 30 but we had a 34 year old in our division. Yes it will suck, you’ll be 34 being bossed around by little bitch 20 year olds that are higher rank. But if you pick a decent rate you can get a lot of good experience out of it and some good education.

If you do choose this route. Since you have audio/electrical experience already I would recommend the rate ET/FC/IC or something similar. I really hate it at times but it’s a steady and guaranteed paycheck, I’ve gotten to see some really fucking cool places, I’ve gotten some good training out of it. Talk to people in The Barracks or feel free to PM me if you want more info. Don’t make the decision lightly… I don’t hate this palce but I wish I had known somethings I know now before I joined.

As far as your relationship… your financial situation is undoubtedly a contributing factor to your problems. Like was said above, get a job, any job. You’d be surprised how much a good server or bartender can make (maybe a bar tending license/classes would be beneficial?). Just don’t get stuck in that field and get out of it as soon as possible. Basically, you say your making an effort to get a job but do you spend a lot of your time sitting around at your house? Just the simple act of being out looking for a job might give her more faith in you and give you some more time. You need to start bringing in bank.

Finances are definitely a killer of a lot of relationships and marriages.

I should mention that I’m 30, and have no college education. I have plans to fix that, but that hinges on me getting a job where I move to.

I hope that if you start college, you will finish it.

When I used to work with older junior college students, they would always tell me that they wanted to finish school. For the most part, many do not finish and most seem to drop out.

Suggestion: What about garbage man? Military?

I hope that if you start college, you will finish it.

When I used to work with older junior college students, they would always tell me that they wanted to finish school. For the most part, many do not finish and most seem to drop out.

Suggestion: What about garbage man? Military?

She doesn’t want me in military, but now that this is going to be over I may consider it.
I’m just going to get something that I can do, and take night courses at a community college if they will transfer so it will be a little cheaper since I’ll have to work and go to school.

I want to make something of myself, but trying to get myself motivated to do that is hard for me. I feel like because I am 30, I’ve wasted my life and won’t amount to anything.

The thing that hurts me is that I don’t think I love her, I don’t even know if I can say it, my ex and I told each other that we loved each other but I don’t think I ever did and I didn’t want to tell this girl that I did if I didn’t.

Even if I get a call back this week for a job I think it’s best if we do split, with her being gone for work so much, I never see her and I do miss her when she’s gone, and when she’s home it’s only for a few days.
I miss my friends terribly, and the though of moving to be with them is a happy one, but I just feel like shit again because I’ve fucked up another relationship and I never wanted to hurt her. I hate myself so much right now, I should be sleeping next to her but I can’t sleep, I just pace back and forth crying.
Sorry for ranting again, doubt it helps me to type it out but whatever.

More than likely wisconsin, thought about moving back to Houston but I think that’s a good idea.
Last post for a while because I’m moving on friday.
My truck started shifting weird the other day and I think my trans fluid is burnt, I do not have money to drain and re-fill this fluid and if this trans is broken I don’t know what I am going to do.
I have not gotten any sleep lately, I stay up so late and cry my eyes out.
I can’t stand myself and that I’m such a failure, I hate myself for what I’ve done to her. I had a chance at something really good and I just fucked it all up. I might as well be a fucking drug addict.
I felt the same way when my other ex left me, part of me knows or wants to know that I will get over this, but the other part of me wants myself to suffer emotionally for what I’ve done or not done to her.

I really feel like I should just end this. I don’t know why I should get over her? What’s the point? I want to be a better person because of her, I want to be a better person to her and be with her. And I can’t even tell her I love her because I’m don’t know if I do or not. How the hell am I supposed to know? I keep hearing that you’ll know if you do, and I don’t want to say it and not mean it.

You don’t have to respond to this, I’m just putting my thoughts out because I can’t go to sleep crying and wake her up.
I think u should not worry about a relationship until u can manage yourself.
IF she wont support you, and is not willing to support you through this time, she is just some sleeze. Get away from her. Either go to the military or find a broke ass job. I know u can get a job at McDonalds or some store, just for the time being, who cares about status. Get the job, live in your truck if u have too.. Save money and start going college. Get ur AA, and get a desk job.. If thats not for you, join the military… With the situation u have, u better stop feeling pity for yourself and get going. your 30, have no edu., and no job… there are many ways to come up..

for ex… A football player walked onto his college team. HE had no family, or money to pay for school. He worked out his local grocery store and lived in his truck… He showered and hygiened at his school gym. He made it out of college to the NFL….now has not a worry in site..

Its time to get up and realize reality dude. You can do it

I think u should not worry about a relationship until u can manage yourself.
IF she wont support you, and is not willing to support you through this time, she is just some sleeze. Get away from her. Either go to the military or find a broke ass job. I know u can get a job at McDonalds or some store, just for the time being, who cares about status. Get the job, live in your truck if u have too.. Save money and start going college. Get ur AA, and get a desk job.. If thats not for you, join the military… With the situation u have, u better stop feeling pity for yourself and get going. your 30, have no edu., and no job… there are many ways to come up..

for ex… A football player walked onto his college team. HE had no family, or money to pay for school. He worked out his local grocery store and lived in his truck… He showered and hygiened at his school gym. He made it out of college to the NFL….now has not a worry in site..

Its time to get up and realize reality dude. You can do it

I really don’t think that’s fair.

The gf may simply NOT be able to support herself and another person.

Last post for a while because I’m moving on friday.
My truck started shifting weird the other day and I think my trans fluid is burnt, I do not have money to drain and re-fill this fluid and if this trans is broken I don’t know what I am going to do.
I have not gotten any sleep lately, I stay up so late and cry my eyes out.
I can’t stand myself and that I’m such a failure, I hate myself for what I’ve done to her. I had a chance at something really good and I just fucked it all up. I might as well be a fucking drug addict.
I felt the same way when my other ex left me, part of me knows or wants to know that I will get over this, but the other part of me wants myself to suffer emotionally for what I’ve done or not done to her.

I really feel like I should just end this. I don’t know why I should get over her? What’s the point? I want to be a better person because of her, I want to be a better person to her and be with her. And I can’t even tell her I love her because I’m don’t know if I do or not. How the hell am I supposed to know? I keep hearing that you’ll know if you do, and I don’t want to say it and not mean it.

You don’t have to respond to this, I’m just putting my thoughts out because I can’t go to sleep crying and wake her up.

You don’t love her. You are just lost in life right now and are clinging to anyone who shows you affection.

Ending your life wouldn’t solve anything. Life isn’t easy, you’re supposed to figure it out. When bad things happen they tend to happen all at once, but the trick is to not freak out every time something new and horrible happens. No one rewards the weak. You learn to take pride in yourself the more you fight for what you want.

What do I suggest? I first suggest you get a sheet of paper and pen out. Instead of staying up all night crying and feeling guilty you should put all your apologies and feelings into a letter. It’s up to you whether you want to send that letter to your ex or keep it. Many times after you write the letter you don’t even have to give the letter to your ex because you already feel so much better writing it all out.

Other than that do you by any chance have the money to seek some kind of therapist?

I really don’t think that’s fair.

The gf may simply NOT be able to support herself and another person.

Well, I am not neccissarily talking about financial support. It sounds like she wont support him in any way, shape or form. I dont know the full story, but if she needs to move on, let her do so. You could use mental support. Find some friends to see if they can help…. Jus dont give up man.
take a beer baster, fill it with corona, and inject it into your ass, while recording and posting on the internet for some internet money?
hopefully you remember that thread, otherwise I’ll just seem like an ass
From the sounds of it, she’s not someone you care about really, so you shouldn’t be living with her anyways. You need to find someone you do care about (eventually).

It might be time to suck up your pride and apply for welfare and go to workshops to find work. Also, there are temp agencies which are generally an excellent way to find immediate work and immediate cash. I’ve got through many a tough time while unemployed by working for temp agencies.

As for the military, what does it matter whether she wants you to or not? You need to fix your own life, first and foremost. If joining the military is a good option for you, and something you’d like to consider, then by all means, do so.

That said, given that you’re 30 years old, they may not want to take you, so speak to a recruiter before you make any definite plans.

Do try to go the officer training route, where they pay for your schooling. Sure, it involves guaranteeing time in service, but, as an officer, you’re less likely to get shot at than a non-com
You sound EXACTLY like my friend, only difference is that he isn’t living with his current gf (yet).

But he too, is frustrated at lack of job opportunities and when he gets them, places find excuses not to hire him. I told him to change his field and stop looking for so much money considering he has a year, limited, experience in IT and no education at all… but he expects to be handed at least 60 grand a year *sigh*

On top of this, he lives at home with his mom, his stepdad and grandparents still at age 31 and he mooches off his gf as well, she’s paying for his health insurance, writing checks for him in hopes he pays her back (he still owes me $600 as well.. I stopped lending 2 years ago) and paying for his food/clothes. Sounds like he found a sugar momma…

So in essence, if could be MUCH worse. What is holding you back in the job market? Are you black balled or something?
Work for a distributor. I work for a beer distributor and we are ALWAYS looking for people. I work for a beer distributor and we are selling beer out the wazoo and we can’t find extra help!

Jump on the trucks or merchandise a grocery store!

Yea, however the part you that I didn’t get to post cause thread got locked was that I didn’t do that, I lied and got that other chick to do it with a tampon tho

To answer the other posts, I’ve looked, maybe not as hard as I should have, but I have looked and turned in applications and called and get nothing.
I feel worthless and I can’t see the point in going on.

I’m going to sleep. Sorry..just needed to write stuff out I guess.

Yea, however the part you that I didn’t get to post cause thread got locked was that I didn’t do that, I lied and got that other chick to do it with a tampon tho

To answer the other posts, I’ve looked, maybe not as hard as I should have, but I have looked and turned in applications and called and get nothing.
I feel worthless and I can’t see the point in going on.

I’m going to sleep. Sorry..just needed to write stuff out I guess.

yeah, you told me it in another thread though

Yea, however the part you that I didn’t get to post cause thread got locked was that I didn’t do that, I lied and got that other chick to do it with a tampon tho

To answer the other posts, I’ve looked, maybe not as hard as I should have, but I have looked and turned in applications and called and get nothing.
I feel worthless and I can’t see the point in going on.

I’m going to sleep. Sorry..just needed to write stuff out I guess.

oh, and go to temp agencies

seriously

best choice for you right now
Suck up your pride and take a job, any job, for the sake of having one. It may not be glamorous but hopefully it will pay the bills until something better comes along. Flip burgers if you have to, just get it done and get back in school.
If your girlfriend was supporting you then you are a bum, sorry.

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