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For the past couple of years I have been fighting with suppressing my anxiety and my aggression, and about a month ago it all surfaced like an explosion. I became insanely short fused and took out all of my anger on my family. Went to my University physician and he sent me over to the "counseling department" which I blew off as a bunch of mumbojumbo BS. They said that I have some anxiety problems and were showing symptoms of OCD.

They prescribed me Lexapro and Biweekly visits to see a psychiatrist. I went to the pharmacy and found out that I could not afford Lexapro at $130 for a 30 day supply so they switched me over to Prozac.
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Long time smoker here, I am 45 and have quit twice before, last year for 3 months and 5 years ago for 2 plus years. I am a total gym rat, I go almost everyday with mt 2 teenage sons, I have worked out for years and know what it takes to step up my game which I have been doing. I also do lots of cardio lately to help with me kicking my habit. My problem is my mood is going up and down, when its up I’m very angry and quick tempered. I have decided to take 3 days holidays included with my weekend to re focus my chi….any comments or whatever appreciated
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Hey everyone, just thought I would let everyone know that I am on day 67!!

I have been hitting up one/two meetings a day. I have been making great friends and have been reading my books and am feeling good. I can’t say it’s been all unicorns and rainbows but its better. Some of the promises are even coming true… life is better on this side.

I am still sans Sponsor, but that will come. I have started going to a women’s group on Tuesday’s and I found another one on Thursday’s so I am going to go check it out and hopefully like what I see there.
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I never thought it was possible for me to get away from cigs, I was up to smoking 20-30 cigs a day and I’ve been smoking for around 6-7 years. I’m not going to post any links to the places I got my shit from because I don’t want to look like some affiliate marketing turd. If you have any questions though I’ll share my limited knowledge about different parts and the different ways you can vape.

any time you are ingesting nicotine you are still feeding the addiction. Using patch/gum/vape is not quitting smoking. Its no longer burning cigarettes but the nicotine is really the problem/what you are addicted to. Put it down and just stop it completely. It’s really the only way to quit.

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Is there a difference between addiction and dependence?

My father was an addict, and physically violent. My brother took that side of him and is addict as well. Anything to get that feeling. Chasing the dragon.

My mom is as well. Painkillers. 3 major neck surgeries. My step dad is as well…which may have had an enviromental effect on my brother.

I’m greatly terrified of my ability to perhaps become my dad. I’m bi-polar, and suffering from PTSD from my brother stabbing me in the head. I’m in many ways, I am considered fucked up, by myself.
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Does anyone know if online NA meetings exist? I find I can’t always physically make it to a meeting and wouldn’t mind joining in online.

Any suggestions would be appreciated!

they do, i know there are some chatrooms but i haven’t been to one

Thanks I am having a terrible day today. I just needed to find a place to share/vent whatever.
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Massive run on sentence/paragraph inc cause im dumping thoughts/feelings

Its really hard to admit you have an addiction, but i did/do to pot(thats some bullshit(eddie griffen)).

I started smoking pot at the age of 15, i will be 27 in march. I have probably taken 60-90 days off of smoking in that time range for getting jobs ect, but always replaced it with drinking(one vice to another). My girlfriend of 5 years left me in december because of the life we have created(smoking being lazy, un productive ect). Huge Low point in my life.
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Go here to read the article:

The article is talking about a ‘wet house’ in Minnesota where the residents (all male I think) are allowed to drink.

I can’t say I can recall ever hearing about something like this before.
Alcoholism as a disease, AA and all that, yeah I know about that. I have no issue with any of that stuff. What is the word I am looking for, oh yeah ‘enabling’. I know what that is too.

I read the article and I was left wondering what someone that is in the AA lifestyle thought about something like this? Do you think it is evil? Do you think it serves a purpose?
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Yep, 90 days already!

I don’t have tons to report. I am still going to one-two meetings a day. I have made a crap load of new sober friends.

I have been able to tackle things that in my drinking and using I never would have thought possible.

In short I am loving my new life. I would like to keep it going for another 24!

Thanks for all your encouragement, tips and support.

I hope you all feel as good as I do right now!

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